Addiction

i'm looking for distraction
to take my mind away from this
to stop the chain reaction
my downward spiral
you'd think i was a gemini
with such a civil war inside
no matter which side wins
you know i'm gonna lose

and so you went away
i long for yesterday
and so you went away
when will this go away

facing my own addiction
to a complete self sabotage
changing my disposition
listening to myself for once
and i have nothing left to say
and so many ways to say it
no wonder that i
just can't shut up anymore